as i said in previous post, Master requested me to move the previous journals from Yahoo to here....so i re-post the 1st one as follow -
Posted on 05/12/2011:
so i finally got a topic to start as the 1st journal after reading and following some bloggers, that is "needs". It is not because i read what their needs are then consider them as mine too. It is part of the things always in my mind during the past months and it becomes a bit clear recently. Also, i'm going to tell the true voice in me, not trying to say something that U may like or enjoy.
The 2 bloggers' post are:
Their lists are not all my needs now, may be cos some seems to be "wants" or some other type of feelings to me. However, i think the list of my needs will become longer when i explore and experience more, right? so here goes with my list up till this moment:
- i need a strong one who is capable and willing to in charge of me or even every aspect of my life. i dunno how to provide an exact explanation of the term "strong one", anyway it's not only physical but also emotional, attitude, personality, etc. i'd never tell U these are the qualities/traits of man i always dream for in all of my past relationships.
- i need to feel safe, i think it linked to the degree i can trust.
- i need a sense of belonging, so i found being controlled, given orders and instructions, restrictions and rules becomes more and more important to me cos these can reinforce such sense and keep me focus.
- i need to feel loved and protected too, i think these give me the strength and support to go on the journey.
- the last one for now is i feel a strong need to please U. i'm not saying it to make U smile, it just the truth i found recently. When i know U feel please to me, i feel happy and excited. However, when U said U r disappointed in me, i feel very sad and mad to myself.
i'm not sure if U already know all or part of my above points, hope it gives U a better understanding of me.